HNT-- My First Cleavage Shot

Well last night at the awards ceremony I caught more than a couple sailors looking at my cleavage. Hell, it looked GOOD!! So I am feeling risque today and thought I would indulge all you HNT people.....enjoy! ;)

Inhaling Smoke

I feel like I am going, going, going this week. Vey busy. Computer switching, Navy Wife Stuff, kid's stuff, and this weekend, some actual fun for me and Hubby....

Tonight Hubby has an Awards Ceremony for the boat to attend. I was up lat night sewing on a rocker for this boat. A rocker is a little patch about 1/2 inch high and about 5 inches long that is slightly curved to fit along the top of the shoulder of Hubby's "Cracker Jack" uniform. It gives the name of his command. it's also a BITCH to sew on. I stuck myself twice with pins trying to get it in place, just right. Then I had issues with my machine and the bobbin...He better get a friggin award! I am dressing up, making cupcakes and going to support Hubby. Even though neither of us really wants to be there LMAO

Tomorrow is volunteering again at school and then tomorrow evening...T-Ball Practice for Emily!! She is so dang excited. When Hubby came home from Duty yesterday after not seeing him for 2 days, she was so excited to tell him about practice on Thursday. I hope she enjoys this....she says she wants to do Karate this summer....we'll see, but it is a real possibility, I think....

This weekend Hubby and I are meeting with some people in a social setting through an online group we are a part of. I am looking forward to it. Socializing with Adults....what a concept....

I don't have much to write about today, I am afraid....got too much to do to really write about things on my mind....cause there isn't much on my mind besides my busy week...oh wait....

SPRING HAS SPRUNG AND I AM LOVING IT!! WOOT!!

Technology is NOT My Friend

So the tranfer to the new computer has gone relatively smoothly. I got all the files I wanted over to this fast , mega-memory computer. I have all my bookmarks, pictures, documents, programs, everything I could possibly think of.

So I am playing Texas Hold'em on Poker Stars last night...just chillin', relaxin', winding down...Mimi's husband had just entered the game table while I was up getting Em a drink....I start to type HI to him. As I hit enter, I realize it didn't go through...so I try again -- nothing. So I do an IM to him -- NADA....I look up at my modem. The online light is not on. Damn.

So I go make sure it isn't that the internet is down. It's done that a few times with this company. I go next door and talk to Mimi and her husband for a few minutes. Mimi's internet is working fine. Damn. Time to call customer support. After about an hour, I still have no internet. So I go upstairs and watch TV. The irony being I have cable, but no cable internet -- go figure.

This morning I am awoken by the tech people calling my cell phone to schedule them to come take a look at everything. My theory is that my 6 year old Motorola Surfboard Modem has died. It lived a good life...and probably needs to be replaced.

Finally at about 3 pm, my internet is back. Damn that was draining. I was going through withdrawral of email and blogging....on the upside, the tech said my modem was running just as good as it should be, and that he doubted I should need another one for another few years. Good. I really didn't want to fork out $65 for one this week.

But I'm back... for now....the cable guy said the signal is real weak, and it's not my modem. The internet could go out again. That would totally suck, doncha know...

Sometimes I think I should have gone to ITT Tech. The I could have fixed this shit myself. And not gotten insulation from my attic on my freshly vacuumed landing *grumble*

Fear of Fire

Last night, I committed the most horrible act upon my child: I nearly scared her to death.

BUT IT WASN'T ON PURPOSE!! In fact my original intent was to entertain them both. Hubby and I discovered a Japanese Hibachi Restaurant here in Southeast CT, so of course, we said, let's bring the kids! We've been entertained at these places, why wouldn't they? I'll tell you why. Fire scares my 2 year old apparently.

Now, we were fine getting into the restaurant, ordering drinks, having an appetizer. All good. They even have chopsticks with some sort of elastic concoction on then that makes them more like tongs, for kids. Kaity and Emily got the hang of their special chop sticks immediately.

Well after a while, the chef guy came in. I was excited to see the kids' reactions. He put some oil stuff on the grill and LIT IT UP --

....Immediately my ears were treated to a piercing scream and crying. Kaitlyn was TERRIFIED! I scooped her in my arms, and tried my best to calm her. She watched the show from my arms, but most of the time she was burrowed into my chest. I couldn't believe Kaity of all people was afraid of the fire. It really bothered me. The rest of the night, whenever she saw the flare of a fire anywhere else in the restaurant, she jumped and trembled. Needless to say, I felt terrible for her having this fear....but it really nagged at me inside....

See folks, Kaity is my adventurous child. She's the one who will dive bomb off the top of one couch to the love seat and vice versa. She took on stairs with ease. She loves to jump on beds, run like a lunatic and pretty much has fear of NOTHING. Honestly. She never freaks at fire works, or dogs, or anything, really....So you can see why, as a parent who knows her child is destined to be a stunt double someday, seeing Kaity get scared at something threw me for a loop...

Hubby and I discussed this for a while on the car ride home. It was then that I realized another reason the hibachi shouldn't have freaked Kaity out. We've had a few campfires with Mimi and her husband next door in the past. I've had to hold her back from the fire, because I feared she would get burnt. She would have touched it if she could, I swear. The Hubby made a point I hadn't thought of: She was in a chair, couldn't move back and the fire descended on her rather quickly. Usually she is in control of what she does, adventure wise, where it be willingly walk up to a fire, or dive bomb off the couch -- she's in charge. The restaurant situation put her in a situation where she had no control of something sudden, and it freaked her out.

It all made sense now. I started to remember throughout the rest of the drive home, instances of Kaitlyn being startled by things; loud noises, people jumping out at Halloween, flashes of light...and realized that when she is startled, it REALLY freaks her out. Man, did I feel like a totally BAD MOTHER after that. I should have realized that the situation would startle her and freak her out. I should have been prepared, already holding her, or even standing up, so she felt like she could get away. Hell, had I not jumped about 1/2 hour before, when the next table over was engulfed in flames suddenly? DUH.....

So most of my night I was wrapped up in guilt. The other half was frustration. Hubby got his wonderful new laptop. He's so happy. He also is ready to turn over the desktop that he built to lil ole me. But I have a LOT of crap on this one to transfer. At first, we were going to put in the extra hard drive from his, transfer stuff to it, then take it out and put it back in his. Or rather, MINE. Well, that didn't work. So then we said "Ok, let's just burn shit onto DVD and transfer it that way. I only have about 20 GB of shit I want to transfer, maybe less. Sure, no problem. The DVD's are 4.7 GB storage. No problemo. To quote Robin Williams from Disney's "Aladdin":

EERRRRR -- WRONG!!

Yeah, for some reason, my DVD RW drive wouldn't work. We thought it was the program. We put another one on...or 3....at this point, I was getting tired and frustrated to my boiling point. It was nearly midnight. I wanted to sleep. So, I did. As Hubby was coming in to say good night, I told him I would go through stuff I already have on CD today and figure out what truly needs to be transferred. After that, I'll burn stuff onto CD and transfer that way. Less stress....

What does this mean for you all? Well....it means that in the transfer process, which I am HOPING will take less than the whole day, I will not be online so much. Then I gotta set up Hubby's, erm, MY new computer and it's lovely 3 GB RAM and two hard drives (drool), to MY specifications. I am HOPING that by tomorrow I will be all done and flying on the 'net faster than ever. But I am going to be cautious and say...I probably won't be back til Tuesday or Wednesday......This was sort of unexpected, as I thought Hubby would wait a week or so to actually do all this.....so go figure....

Happy Trails Til We Meet Again (in a few days, I promise!)

~Cissa

Me, a Guest Blogger!

So Fuzzbox has been being the Guest Moderator over at Beauty Vs. The Beast. He sent out a post saying that if anyone wanted to volunteer they should e-mail him. So I did!

My post is now up there. Go check it out!!

The come back here and comment! I LOVE comments! I feel so LOVED when people LEAVE COMMENTS!

;P

Funny E-mail

I got his from Mimi this afternoon....a good, clean laugh...

A woman brought a very limp duck into a veterinary surgeon. As she laid her pet on the table, the vet pulled out his stethoscope and listened to the bird's chest.

After a moment or two, the vet shook his head sadly and said, "I'm so sorry, your duck, Cuddles, has passed away."

The distressed owner wailed, "Are you sure?"

"Yes, I am sure. The duck is dead," he replied.

"How can you be so sure," she protested. "I mean, you haven't done any testing on him or anything. He might just be in a coma or something."

The vet rolled his eyes, turned around and left the room, and returned a few moments later with a black Labrador Retriever.

As the duck's owner looked on in amazement, the dog stood on his hind legs, put his front paws on the examination table and sniffed the duck from top to bottom. He then looked at the vet with sad eyes and shook his head.

The vet patted the dog and took it out, and returned a few moments later with a cat.

The cat jumped up on the table and also sniffed delicately at the bird from head to foot. The cat sat back on it's haunches, shook its head, meowed softly and strolled out of the room.

The vet looked at the woman and said, "I'm sorry, but as I said, this is most definitely, 100% certifiably, a dead duck."

Then the vet turned to his computer terminal, hit a few keys and produced a bill, which he handed to the woman.

The duck's owner, still in shock, took the bill."$150!", she cried, "$150........just to tell me my duck is dead!"

The vet shrugged. "I'm sorry. If you'd taken my word for it, the bill would have been $20, but with the Lab Report and the Cat Scan, it's now $150.00. "

HAHAHA!! Classic! I love good zingers like that. Thanks for the laugh Mimi!

Happy HNT - My First Tatt

Since last week was my first HNT, I thought this month we could continue with "firsts" ..Below is the very first Tattoo I got. In 1995 at age 18. I managed to hide it from my parents for about...2 years, I think...eventually I stopped being scared of their reaction to my tatts. Of course by the time they saw my tattoos, I think I was like engaged or at least seriosuly dating Hubby by then....so anyway..here it is...

ok..so blogger is messing up with pictures and my migraine isn't helping things...I'll try later to update it....


Update-- 12:59 PM --

*crossing fingers that it works...*



Oh thank god.....

Happy HNT!

Feeling Wretched

I woke up to drive Hubby into work this morning with a headache. I thought it was for lack of sleep. Came home and went back to bed slept another 2 hours. Now it's worse. It is a fulll-blown migraine and I just want to die, not deal with loud children. I don't think I am gonna volunteer for Emily's class today. I'll be lucky if I can make it to 12 pm without too much pain. Even the thought of driving right now makes me hurt more....thinking hurts....

I'd give just about anything for a chauffer today.....and a nurse...or a nanny.

Fenced In

I love it when people move sometimes.

You see,when people moveout of Navy Housing, they usually don't want to bring evrything they had at their old house with them. Especially outdoors stuff -- like sheds, and fencing.

Now, I know I am going to be here for a while longer. And because I know that, I like to grab freebies for my yard when I see them. Case in point: today I have already aquired about 40 fett of fencing. I plan on going and getting more later on when I am finished volunteering at the school.

Why would I want someone's old fence? well, quite simply, because I am cheap. And poor. The Navy doesn't pay Hubby that well, though most civilians think it does. Anyway, so, this perfectly good cedar fence -- trash? I DON'T THINK SO!!

I may even be able to get enough to cover Mimi's yard too! But first - mine. Cause I got a 2 year old and a 5 year old, and If I can keep them in the yard, they can play back there all summer and I won't have to worry as much!! woot!

Now all I gotta do is get Hubby to help me put it all together.....And they just opened a Lowe's in Waterford! YAY!! I LOVE HARDWARE!!

Balloon Animal Update

Lookie what I MADE!!!!

MANY THANKS to Professor Wonder for his Poinsietta Design which was the basis of the petals! I also picked up somewhere else how to make the stem, but to be honest, after lookiong through balooning websites for about oh...3 hours, I couldn't tell you where

WOOT! I DID IT!! So now I can make:

a dog, a girraffe, a turtle bracelet, a flower, an elephant, a bunny and later this week, I think I'll start on hats! WOOHOO!!

oh yeah, my life is so sad...

Hope you like your flower, Mimi!

Burning Out

So, I like to keep busy. This means I try to get involved in things outside my house often. I actually can't stand sometimes to sit around, but I also don't like to be run ragged with the the things I do, then have to come home and clean/do laundry/cook, whatever...well I have a new little hobby, and one of these days I hope to have time to culminate it. Once I am done doing everything else I do in my life...including blogging.

I'm talking about animal balloons.

yes, that's what I said -- animal balloons. Kids love them. MY kids love them. And I even volunteered to make animal balloons at the Boat Easter Party in a few weeks. I can make a few things, but this weekend I was hellbent on making the coolest balloon of them all -- a sword.

Here's the problem though: It is REALLY HARD to find a website for FREE that will give you directions, with GOOD illustrations for a beginner. It's also nearly impossible to find a book on it in Borders anywhere in a 100 mile radius. I actually had to order something. And I think the book is going to be too advanced for me. But I want to be able to make cool animal balloons for the party. Dang it, I want those kids to go home and when mom and dad ask the kiddos "What was the best part, honey?" Right after EASTER BUNNY, I want those kids to say "The balloons!"

Now, some of you are gonna say "Well Cissa, since you seem to like it so much, maybe you should make a living out of it?" To you folks I say HELL NO!! Why? Simply because I don't want to make a living out of being around kids all the time! I am a selfish person. I like my free time to be on the computer when the kids are out, or asleep, etc. If I did this for a living, I would have my kids all week, and then on the weekends, I would be entertaining everyone ELSE'S kids!! No thanks! If I wanted that, I would have paid for 4 years of college, and have a degree in Education. To quote Austin Powers "It's not my BAG, baby!"

But that doesn't mean I don't want to learn how to make wicked cool animals and hats, etc.

On another topic. Go visit Mimi's Blog. It's hilarious today. No, not hilarious. It's AWESOME!! So is SO RIGHT ON about how the world really should be...or at least America. Plus I know she'd love to hear from all of you. Well -- if you people won't comment here, maybe you will over there? Just a thought ;)

Oh I forgot to mention about the Easter Party -- you ever feel like you over-volunteer for things? Like I said I would do the animal balloons. And then I said I would do a jelly bean count. AND I was also asked to to PB & J sandwiches. Did I mention that Hubby has duty the day of this party??? How totally unfair is THAT??? So I am gonna have all this stuff to do, and then in addition, deal with kids -- on a Saturday. I mean, I can make the sandwiches the night before, and the jelly beans are already in the jar and ready to be counted. But T-Ball starts next week, I start volunteering at Em's school this week, oh yes, and I still have everyday stuff, like cleaning, cooking, driving Em to school, and miscellaneous things around here. I feel like I am gonna burn out after this party. I get stressed to easily. I like things to be perfect. I can't help it. It's borderline OCD for me.

yeah. I have issues.But for now...my biggest issue is learning how to make this: (just one, not the whole bouquet)



If you know how to make this and are willing to show me, please leave a comment!


Update - 10:30am -- I forgot I was tagged by Dr. John! I have to list 7 of my favorite songs. I will attempt to do this while listening to2 kids scream and fight and cry..

1. La Vie Boheme from RENT Motion Picture Soundtrack

2. Love of a Lifetime by Firehouse

3. Thank You by Led Zeppelin

4. Wish You were Here by Pink Floyd

5. Redneck Woman by Gretchen Wilson

6. Torn by Natalie Imbruglia

7. Sweet Emotion by Aerosmith

Those were the 7 that came to my mind first...I love them all! I am not tagging anyone though. I can't concentrate long enough to pick 7 people. the kids are being particularly heinous today!

Finnz Friendz

I am going to participate in the Great Strides Walk for Cystic Fibrosis on May 20th in Providence. An old high school friend of mine, Patrick, sent a bulletin message on MySpace about the walk and about his son's conditon with CF. I was inspired to help. So, I did the first thing I could think of -- I signed up to walk and raise money.

I like to donate to the Make a Wish Foundation in Mae's memory, but this year, my charity will go towards this. Please look over on the left and look for this logo and click on it, to learn more about this disease and the walk. And please consider making a donation to help me and Team "Finnz Friendz" raise money for CF Research.



Thanks in advance if you donate!

Erin Go Braugh

Yes, I have some Irish in Me. On My Mom's side. I look REALLY GOOD with red hair, I even have Green eyes! I may be more Hispanic than anything. but my skin says "I'M IRISH!!"

I'm not actually doing anything besides wearing green and white today. Hubby and I don't drink too often anymore...and I HATE crowds, and bars are always crowded on this holiday....more so in Military communities becaue payday was 2 days ago...LOL...I might go seea movie with Hubby, not sure....trying to get us on a date is like pulling teeth...*sigh*

Growing up in New England, Rhode Island specifically, March meant 2 Holidays for me -- Today and what normally falls on the Friday after St. Patrick's Day -- St. Joseph's Day. It's an Italian Holiday...it's next week, and for the first time in 8 years, I am having Zeppelas!!! woot!...

May Your green beer never go sour, and Your pints of Guinness always be frothy.....

~Cissa O'Fireheart

Half Nekkid Thursday - Tatt for Mae

I have broken down and given in. I am breaking under the self-induced pressure of seeign my fellow bloggers do Half Nekkid Thursday. I am sucked in.

For my very first HNT I thought I would show something meaningful. This tattoo on my left shoulder blade is in honor of my first daughter, Mae. She was born and died on April 23, 2000. I will talk about it more next month.....onto the picture....

American Idol Crap

If I read one more freakin' American Idol rundown from someone on my Blogroll, I am gonna puke!

Seriously? I read through 4 already today. SO ...TOTALLY...OVER...IT....

I knew there was a reason I haven't been watching it...I can just read everyone's friggin' blogs about it the next day....oh yeah and after season 2, it just got old....

PLEASE for the love of God -- my friends and fellow bloggers -- STOP THE INSANITY!!!

So Whatcha Think?

I kept essentially the same design, I just added a new background, changed a couple colors, and made a new title bar....Thanks to the FABULOUS Patterns at Citrus Moon ....And the permanant link is at the bottom of my sidebar to the left....

Hope you all like...if not...I'll probably change it in a couple months again...hehe

Sifting through Debris

Reading Mimi's post from yesterday got me thinking about my poetry from my teen years. I used to keep a diary and I thought I was the freaking BOMB when it came to poetry. I looked through the books, and started reading entries, poems, etc. I've come up with a few conclusions about my life from 11, 10, 9 and 8 years ago....

1. I was easy to fall in love
2. I was a freakin' glutton for punishment
3. I was seriously depressed and must have hid it pretty well from the outside world
4. I have terrible handwriting and wish I had gotten better instruction on that. Most of the stuff was barely legible!

A few phrases I noticed were repeated were "I'm so depressed", "What is the matter with me?" , "I am all alone". Almost up to my meeting Hubby I was feeling depressed. Looking back I don't recall feeling THAT down, but maybe that was a bit of denial I was experiencing....for 3 years straight. Apparently I got it all out in my journals though...kinda weird.

Maybe I need to start keeping one again....and look it over in 10 years to see how much I have changed....maybe THIS is my journal now. Amazing how introspective I get when I look at my past. I really AM a nut case LMAO.

I wanted to share one of my piss poor poems...Hope you all don't gag. I find they're terribly entertaining now...

from 3/12/1995 (that's 11 years - I was 17, a senior in high school, 3 months shy of graduation):

I lie here and wonder
what is my destiny?
Am I to live my life alone?
Or shall I prosper in the
Great Wealth of Love?
I am alone, so far from you.
To hear your voice, feel your touch,
touch your lips.
It seems like a dream
that I never will have
so long as I sleep.
Time is the prison which
locks me away.
In this cell of solitude
will you be my pardoner?
Or will I die, imprisoned
by the harsh, cruel jailers
we call society.
I wait and wait,
so many tearful nights
and bleak emotionless days
for the reunion of our love
our souls
our destiny.

Damn. Depressing and lovey-dovey. I can feel the bile rising in my throat it's THAT bad! LMFAO

Later Gators......

Like Father Like Daughter

My daughter is officially a video game junkie.

Her birthday party on Saturday yeilded a decent amount of new presents. Barbies, golls, Brats, etc. You know girl stuff. But Me, being completly osessed with Emily being the smart child I never was, did not indulge this year in a toy that she can play with conventionally.

She had been asking for a Nintendo Game Cube. Well, ain't NO WAY IN HELL I was going to buy a 5 year old a $200 system and then games at $50 a pop. NO WAY. So I figured I'd get her a V.Smile. That way she could play a video game AND learn....Well since it's been tken out of the box, she has barely done anything else. Not interested in TV, or videos, or ANYTHING like that. No, she wants to play her V.Smile. And it's $20 games. And she's already learning math. Best $60 I've ever spent.

Sometimes I am so amazed that I actually do the right thing for my kid. I am not a teacher, and I know that. I have got her in a pre-k program. I got her a learnign video game. I have got her papaer to practice her writing on. I am actually getting the paretning thing down....

Now if only I could drag her away from the V.Smile to get ready for school......

Inflamation of the Heart....

EMMY LOST HER TOOTH LAST NIGHT!!

It was very exciting. The Tooth Fairy came and left her a DOLLAR for her tooth!! What the hell?? I was LUCKY to get 50 cents for my teeth! I am telling you, inflation is just insane.....My god will it be $2 per tooth when kaity starts losing hers?

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I would like to send my condolences to Lushy and her sister and husband...and truly the whole family. Her sister lost her baby at 29 weeks of pregnancy. What a very sad sad day for them. I wish I could say I don't know the pain they are going through, but I actually do.....

More on my loss next month....but in the meantime, please keep Lushy and her family in your thoughts and prayers...thanks....

Happy Birthday Emily!

My oldest Daughter is 5 years old today! What a milestone! In the fall, she'll start Kindergarten!!!! In about an hour, the girls will get a bath, then Em and I will go to school, where I will be a special visitor for the whole day! (2 3/4 hours LOL)

It's crazy to think that this girl is only 5. Some days she is so smart and mature beyond her years. For instance, she was awake when I got up, sitting patiently on the couch watching TV when I came down this morning. She was patient waiting for her "surprise" of presents. She didn't know, and she was patient to wait for it. She was polite and said "Thank You" to Me, Hubby and little sister.....AMAZING!

We gave her a few presents this morning, though her big presents she'll get at her party on Saturday. She got some new Strawberry Shortcake bedding and Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire on DVD. Then me, her, Hubby and Kaity decorated cupcakes for her class for snack today.

Not an hour later she's throwing a fit because she wants to open said bedsheets and strew them across the house.....ah well......

Today is her day. We'll have what SHE wants for dinner, and although her party isn't until Saturday, we'll make sure she knows today is special.

I cannot believe I am the mother of a 5 year old. It just seems so.....surreal.....

HAPPY 5TH BIRTHDAY EMILY!!

Burning a Hole in My Pocket

Money is the root of all evil. I never seem to have enough. And then, that special time of the year comes around, and I feel like a lotto winner gone wild. Tax Time !!

But this feeling of financial uphoria when that time comes? It's bad -- really really bad. Like a hurts so good kind of bad. I know I shouldn't feel this way, but I do. And I dunno how to stop it. I have a spending compulsion to buy absolute crap that I totally don't need. But this time around...I managed to be fairly responsible with our tax return...what's left of it anyway...

Hubby bought a custom made laptop. It'll be here soon. It's not the "perfect" one that he wanted, but even our full return amount would not have yielded enough for that....but the one he did get totalled about 2/3 of the return -- and that's saying something. So with what I have left, I have managed to pay some bills, get Emily's birthday presents and party taken care of, ordered new contacts that I have put off for 3 months to get, new glasses because my current ones are 3 years old, and we still have money to get groceries, go out on a date or two and buy some other unmentionable stuff.

But you know.....I desperately want to blow it all on stuff I don't need....it's a craving...it's so bad...almost like drugs or alcohol craving......

I am not going to let myself get carried away.....I will be more responsible.....

But dang, not before I buy some new spring fashions!

Comming Up for Air

Much to my chargin yesterday, and although I was not ready for Him to, Hubby called at 1PM , ready to be picked up and taken home! I was ALMOST ready, and things were good enough for Him, I suppose.....

Well, I forgot to mention the snow. It started snowing at about 10 am. By 1 pm we had a good 2 - 3 inches. Yeah and Hubby's truck AINT'T gor 4WD....I almost didn't make it past the stop sign at our house, I was slippin and sliding, and they hadn't plowed My street yet....

Yeah, so I make it to him eventually. Got Hubby in the car....and there is INSANE traffic. Everyone is beng let out early due to the snow. We got about 6 inches total I'd say. Kinda sucky for March, but oh well. Anyway. After nearly 3/4 of an hour of waiting and traffic.....

HUBBY IS HOME! Kinda. He had to go back to work today, hence why I am writing quickly.

Yes, the sex was great. Both times. Although I had this crazy dream.....well nevermind....

Yeah and last night....my daughter was biting into her pizza....I was upstairs getting a DVD ready for Hubby and I to watch. All of a sudden I hear Him call for me...I go downstairs and Emily is crying...she calms down enough to tell me her tooth hurts...I look in her mouth and see that one of her teeth has a little bit of blood on it.....I touch it...it WIGGLES!!

"Oh Emmy! You have a loose tooth!!" Cue me tearing up at the realization my first baby's baby teeth are starting to fall out just shy of her 5th birthday.

*sniffle*

Her reaction?

"Ohhh! So tha means the tooth fairy will come and leave me money for my tooth??"

Hubby laughed. I nearly cried -- again.

My god. what is the exchange rate on teeth these days, anyway? When I was a kid, it was 25 cents per tooth. That was over 20 years ago. Is it $1 per tooth now? well, that's what she's getting.....as soon as the damn thing comes out that is.... here's a picture of her teeth. The loose one is direectly under the separation of her top two front teeth....



So as you all can see, a very exciting day in the Fireheart House. Daddy's Home, loose teeth, AND it snowed......

OK, back to life....Hubby had to go in to work, but I still have things to do around here today...

Fanning the Flames

OK, so.....I am not going to be around for about oh...I'd say.....3 days..possibly more.....

I can't tell You why though. It's a matter of National Security.....

But be advised, I will be VERY VERY happy. I even have a trip to Victoria's Secret in preparation. That's what's the best part.

And so I leave you with a McDreamy....so when you visit, you will have pleasant thoughts...


Oh yes, and because I am so happy with the fact that George stood up for himself, and even has a hot, NOT DISGUSTINGLY SKINNY Doctor crushing on Him (Damn had I known, I could have been her...*sigh* George, you sweet man you.....)


Oh wait, can't forget about my Male readers.....One for You, boys....Dr. Izzie Stevens, aka Bethany Whisper *wink*

LATER!!!

And You're Thinking of Drinking Gasoline....

I've read a lot of blogs out there where people put their "Top 5 list" for the world to see. That's cool. I happen to agree with some choices. I'm a freaky kinda gal though, I gotta say. I can't commit to one kind of guy, as far as who is "do-able", and I attribute this to the fact I was a bit of a chamelon growing up. I had my friends, yes, but I was also friendly with MOST of the other "groups" out there - jocks, geeks, drama kids, etc. So when it comes to my taste in Men....it's just as ecclectic....

All the usual suspects are on my list -- which is more than 5 mind you, because 5 is just too small a number for all the hot guys out there. I don't like to narrow my options.

But I have recently "discovered" the newest member of My List: Anthony Rapp

Oh yeah - Mark from RENT. I cannot contain myself when I see this man sing and dance on my TV screen. He's not extremely athletic looking, but he's lean.Not usually somethign I go for in a lot of Men, but hey.... But the Man can SING...and I LOVE his funky dancing on "La Vie Boheme". Everytime I watch that song, I just want to jump up on that table with Him and jump his bones. I remember him first from "Dazed and Confused" with the Abe Lincoln Dream....thought he was kinda cute then, but after seeing RENT? Holy God I was like - WOW! Yeah...I'm a loser, but I mean...here...look.....

I can hear some of you now.... "That girl is so weird..." yeah yeah...well...Anthony, should you EVER come accross this blog, and if you ever need a booty call, seriosly....I'm your girl!!

Of Course -- If George or McDreamy read this too -- Same offer stands, Gentlemen....

Oh can't forget Johnny, Christian, Orlando, Clive, Sean (Connery), Patrick (Stewart), Tom (Selleck), Adam (Pascal or Alda -- seriously either one)...My list could go on and on....see what I mean? Eccelectic list of Men I'd LOVE to have one night stands with......

ok, gotta show the McDreamy Picture...I just gotta.....*melts*

Wow, You all must be able to tell I miss My husband, when my entire post is about Men I'd love to share My bed with. Not much longer and Hubby will be home....but MAN...it is tough to see hot guys everywhere and NOT want them.... but no doubt, there is ONE MAN that I want above all others.....


Only a few more days, only a few more days, only a few more days.......

Wood for the Fire

It took the death of my freind's grandmother to make me think about some serious stuff the last couple days....some serious like Soul-searching stuff...

1.) Monday night was the first time I have been in a funeral parlor for almost 6 years. The last time? I was at my own child's funeral.....it was tough, looking at my friends' Gran's casket and not having flashbacks of my own child's funeral. It was hard not to be so sad for other reasons than her death. I need to talk about it...and I will...in April......

2.) My Nana died over 6 years ago. I have been back in New England nearly 9 months. I have YET to go to her grave. How bad of a person am I? My Nana loved me so much, and I loved her so much. Yet I haven't had the decency to pay my respects to her yet? What the hell is wrong with me? This will change. When Hubby returns in a few days, and goes on leave, we're going on a trip to the cemetary. WITH FLOWERS.

3.) Sitting in the church during the funeral rites, I was taken aback by my own lack of enthusiasm for my faith as of late. I haven't been to church since Christmas Eve and before that, only one other church since the summer. I feel....empty without knowing the presence of God so much in my life again. I am going to change that -- starting this Sunday. I am going to to go bed early Saturday night and I am going to pick a church and go to a service. If I like it, I will go back. If I don't I will pick a different church to try. I want God in My life again. I have strayed and I feel hollow.

4.) I don't value my children enough. I realize this often. I have started to make a more concious effort towards doing things with them. I haven't been Mother of the Year, and I don't know that I ever will be. But I can make an effort to be a better one than I have lately.

5.) I miss my husband. Terribly. While he's been gone, I have come to appreciate Him more, but at the same time, I have come to appreciate myself more. I forget what it's like to really be in charge of everything. To not have to ask for approval or check with someone about everything. Which don't get me wrong, is important too. But I am glad he went, and I am glad that I am able to actually miss Hubby, the person, his actual companionship, rather than resent his presence, and feel weighed down about life. This has actually been good for our marriage. I look forward to being able to talk to him about things. And I hope that he will agree to start going to church with me again.

6.) No Day But Today -- if you don't know what it means, you need to watch the Movie or go see the play RENT. It's becomming my mantra. And honestly, it's a good thing. It can be applied on so many facets of my individual life and my life with My family, I honestly feel like that is a Message from God.....hard to explain....but I seem to take signs from God in the forms of media....wish I could explain better.....but hey God knows He is reaching me....so it's a good thing ...

there's more, but I need to post this. Perhaps tomorrow I will post more of my ephiphanies. Maybe not.

Last Minute emergency -type thing

Going out of town tomorrow, will be back teusday evening. Death of friend family member.

Hope You all are Healthy and Happy....


~Cissa Fireheart

A little surprise tonight....

So at about 20 past 7 tongit my cell phone rang. I looked and it was HUBBY'S CELL!!

He pulled into port for a day or two, and called Me. it was so nice to hear his voice. I miss Him a lot, and I cannot wait for Him to come home.

Went to Kerri's baby shower. It was fun but sad. I will explain more later this week....

I'm tired. I put together the stand alone linen closet all bymyself last night. Mimi helped me move it into my room....

Life goes on.

RENT comes out on DVD on Tuesday!!

Swirls of Emotions and Thoughts

I am going to Ramble...You have been warned.

I miss Hubby. Yes it is great when I get to clean how I want, and do lots of TV dinners for me and the kids. Heck I am even taking up the whole bed to sleep comfortably. But there are days when I just miss Him being there for me. His company, his humor, his strength. He can not be saying a word, sitting on his computer behind me while I play a viso game, and I feel completely at peace, just because He's there. I don;t remeber feeling like this when he was out to sea before. Maybe I grew up and just got the news flash that I love Him more than ever.

Last Wednesday I got an email from him. I have gotten one for 6 days straight. I started to expect them. I got one on Valentines Day. I haven't gotten another since. This wouldn't bother me as much if I hadn't gotten so many emails in a row. I know I sound like I am whining....and I am, to a point. But I sent him a letter the other night that I found to be somwhat important and would like a prompt response. I expected a response, and since I haven't got one, I find myself disappointed. It sucks feeling this way. Even though I shouldn't because I have gotten more emails this past week then I did in an entire 6 month period on his last boat. I'm spoiled now. I told him not to do it, but he did anyway....*sigh*

Emily's birthday is coming. I need to get her a place to have it. I have to decide where to have the party. I have to decide on a "present" from us. And what to tell others to get her. I have to do the taxes before Hubby gets Home. I have to clean the house and get that damn wardrobe put together so I can get rid of all the doggone boxes in my bedroom.

I been reading people's blogs again finally. Some of the topics I can't beleive. For example: If you are going to leave your husband, don't advertise it on the net. He could turn that around and try to use it as evidence of cheating -- which could TOTALLY screw up your Alimony/child custody/child support stuff. Plus it's just sad. Maybe I will just take that blog off my blogroller......

I think February is the month of the burn-out. Magazine Man is taking a vacation due to it. a lot of people have taken off from blogging due to burn-out. Heck even I am feeling burnt-out and overhwelmed by the real world. Blogging just doesn't seem to fit into my motivation to do things in life.

My kids are growing everyday. Kaitlyn is turning into one of the most Hilarious people I know. Emily is turning into one of the most neurotic people I know. I have to nip it in the bud. But I don't know how. Asking my mother isn't an option, and my step-dad is just too harsh with Em. My Dad is clueless, and My step-mom, would just say she's fine and not neurotic. But I am just going to leave that alone.....so essentially, unless Dr. Phil reads this and has suggestions for me in the comments, I am going to have to stumble along with this parenting thing.....

And now I have to go take care of things...and try to figure out how to get everything done....

oh shoot. I have a baby shower to go to on Saturday...dang it...I gotta buy a gift! And find a baby sitter ...

If only there were more hours in a day....and I could put Emily on a bus to get to school. it would save me an hour everyday *sigh*

Snow, Valentines, and Bad Driving

WOW. We got a lot of snow. I measured 8 different places around my yard on Sunday evening, and it was anywhere from 9 - 22 inches. INSANE!!!

Yesterday I had to dig my way out of the driveway. school had a 90 min delay, but that did not affect PM K/Pre-K classes. So I got Me and the girls bundled up, and began to shovel. My friend Jen from down the street drove by and asked fif I needed help. I took it gladly....It only took me 1 1/2 hours to get to the street with Jen's help.....I don;t know why it didn't dawn on Me to take pictures. I guess I was just too tired.

Mimi was out of town and got stuck in Maryland for another day. I knew there was no way she was going to get into her driveway if I did not shovel it for her and her husband. So, after Emily was dropped off, I started on their driveway. about 1/2 way through some little mini snow plw comes through to plow the sidewalks. great, but then they blocked in the end, where I had JUST finished shovelign!! I gave the guy the finger the next two times he dorve past. heh.

So, 2 hours later I finish Mimi's driveway. I had slipped a few times, and almost fell on my ass and broke it once or twice. and the repetitive motion of it all, especially the leaning down part.....well....I was hurting. But it was OK. I had done this for my friends.

After I woke up this morning, I mentally kicked myself for being stupid and doing it all myself.....I was stiff, in pain, and still even now, I hurt. I took a hot shower, but it didn't do too much. Tonight I will break out the heating pad.

Today is Valentines day. yep. We don;t do this holiday too much in our house. it's just not a big deal. Mostly because Hubby has been gone for most of them. Oh well.

I got a surprise today. I was expecting something. I had seen the OBSCENELY HIGH amount withdrawn from the bank account in VA. I had been warned by Hubby to expect something. When I wasn't sure, but i figured it HAD to be for today....yesp. at about 10 am, I saw a car pull up. I went to the door.....and the guy had flowers for me!! Here they are

Aren't they gorgeous???? I dunno if they are worth the OBSCENE AMOUNT Hubby paid for it though....oh well....

So to the last part. Bad Driving. This is what happened to Me. I drove to pick up Emily from school. Attempted to do my usual 3-point turn on the side street to park and get her. Well...I reversed a little too much in the 2nd point, and wound up rolling back into the small ditch on the side of the road. (I drive a standard, when I released the clutch and hit the gas I rolled a lil bit) YES IT WAS SNOWY AND WET. I am an idiot, I know. BUT in my defense, I am not the IDIOT who bought a "SUV" without 4-wheel drive. So I blame Hubby. Truly I do. Hehe.

So that's been my Valentines...lovely, eh?

Happy Lovey Dovey Day to You All....if You celebrate it, that is.....

Not Dead, Seriously

OK, so I got a semi life last week.....and lost time and motivation for blogging. Even now...I am only writing becuase I feel like you all might think I dropped off the earth....

Let's See....Oh yes, I went to RI on Wednesday. First up, Matron of Honor dress trying-on with Nessa. Ironically enough, over the weeknnd, she had changed colors and now it was peach and mint green. Amazingly enough, the style dress she wanted for the Bridesmaids, came out with a new color - Mint Julep! Nessa pracically passed out in the store with excitement.

Here I am, in all my non-glory.....posing in My dress. Mine will be the mint green, and the others will have the pinky-peach color....that's Danielle in the color the rest of the girls will wear...



after playing dress up, we headed back to Nessa's place, where I called Home and check on the kids...then we got ready to go to

JOSEPH AND THE AMAZING TECHNICOLOR DREAMCOAT!!!

which I will write about later on in another post....

We're expecting a Blizzard here in CT overnight, so I may be disconnected for a while because of it. 8-12 inches the weather says. Not sure if I believe it or not......guess I will find out when I wake up tomorrow morning, eh?


ok see y'all later.....